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17 September 2019 @ 12:49 am
In August I walked 121.64 miles. Today I started going to the gym. I've also set my workout goals.

1. Walk 500 miles before the years end. as of today I have 169.13.

2. After the new year start working on uper body as well. I already do a few pushups a day, but focused on goal one right now.

3. I want to be able to do behind-the-head pull-ups.

Now to bed. Work and gym have me beat.
26 August 2019 @ 10:54 pm
My ordinary life is killing me.
24 August 2019 @ 09:38 pm
As my birthday draws near, as well as the end of the month and summer, I though I reflect a bit on recent changes. I noticed that I have, unintentionally, almost completely cut soda out of my diet. My junk food intake has also decreased. This last might be because we just don't keep much of it in the house. I still eat more than I probably should, but life's too short to skip the cookies.

I've started exercising. Not much, but I take a daily walk of at least 3.2 miles. I've almost made 100 miles for August. I plan on joining a gym next month so I can keep walking once winter hits and so I can work on my upper body. I don't need to lose weight, I want gain strength and stamina. I have found working out also helps me with my soul crushing depression better than my medication ever did.

I've also decided I'm going to give acting a go. By that I mean practicing lines and scenes at home to try and get some skills and confidence, and then throw myself out there. I have no grand illusions about my potential. Local stuff and B movies would suit me just fine. If it all flops, I won't be devistated. Ok, that's a lie. I will be, but I'll move on.

I'm trying to give my writing some attention again. I've let it sit for far too long. Old stories need finishing and new ones need starts.

Is this a midlife crisis? No, I don't think so. I've never been 100% happy with my life and I'm making a change. If it is, I fully embrace it. Lets riot against ourselves and start anew.
07 August 2019 @ 05:20 pm
1. Need running and walking shoes, a few workout shirts.
2. Join gym
3. Start jogging, after gym membership is obtained.
4. Sign up for a 5k
5. Start working on upper body/arms.
06 August 2019 @ 02:52 pm
He tastes of sweat and dirt with a touch of copper. A bittersweetness that reminds you of long forgotten candy but should remind you of decay.
31 July 2019 @ 06:41 pm
When I walk at night I look at the sky and I am often hit with a heavy and almost painful vertigo and another completely indescribable feeling in my chest. I feel small and vulnerable, safe yet insecure in my insignificance. Alive and full of anxiety and fear but also at peace.
15 July 2019 @ 08:44 pm
If told me Stargate was real and I was in anyway qualified to be part of it I'd have my bags packed quicker than gate travel.
10 July 2019 @ 09:32 pm
19 June 2019 @ 06:35 pm
This past Friday I did someting only slightly impulsive. I got my tongue pierced. I didn't do it years ago because I was afraid of what other people would think of me. It's still a bit sore, obviously, but I am glad I did it. I am now up to 17 piercings and 11 tattoos.
28 May 2019 @ 11:50 pm
Too often, in what is quite frankly a short life, do we let what others think of us, or what we perceive they think of us affect our actions. Sometimes even the thought of what people we will never meet would think of us can cause us to not do something we want to do.

Life is too short. Humans age. We wither, we decay, and we die.

Go out and dye your hair. Get that piercing. Go after that job. Sing that song. Love that person. Eat that cake. Chase your dream.  As long as it doesn't hurt someone else or yourself, and you you know what I mean by that, go do it. Go have that experience. Feel those feelings.
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