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15 July 2019 @ 08:44 pm
If told me Stargate was real and I was in anyway qualified to be part of it I'd have my bags packed quicker than gate travel.
10 July 2019 @ 09:32 pm
19 June 2019 @ 06:35 pm
This past Friday I did someting only slightly impulsive. I got my tongue pierced. I didn't do it years ago because I was afraid of what other people would think of me. It's still a bit sore, obviously, but I am glad I did it. I am now up to 17 piercings and 11 tattoos.
28 May 2019 @ 11:50 pm
Too often, in what is quite frankly a short life, do we let what others think of us, or what we perceive they think of us affect our actions. Sometimes even the thought of what people we will never meet would think of us can cause us to not do something we want to do.

Life is too short. Humans age. We wither, we decay, and we die.

Go out and dye your hair. Get that piercing. Go after that job. Sing that song. Love that person. Eat that cake. Chase your dream.  As long as it doesn't hurt someone else or yourself, and you you know what I mean by that, go do it. Go have that experience. Feel those feelings.
Tunes: VoicePlay
24 May 2019 @ 12:04 am
I keep starting and deleting this post. Too much, or perhaps not enough, wine has me feeling maudlin. My mind is stuck on "What if's" and the past.

But I have a kitty in my lap trying to distract me from my intoxicated ruminations. What reason I have right now says to listen to the cat.
Mood: drunkdrunk
Tunes: Buffy The Vampire Slayer Musical
19 May 2019 @ 06:31 pm
Found out some of my favorite fanfics are no longer online, mostly due to the great Fanfiction.net purge of years ago. So I am posting them to my AO3 account, user name Jekl. Keeping the stories as they are, except for fixing spelling mistakes, and adding my own disclaimer. If the original authors are out there I hope they see them. If they don’t then at least others can enjoy these stories again.
10 May 2019 @ 09:43 pm
I've had this blog since 2003. Fun coincidence, the day I created this blog was my husbands 22nd birthday, though it would be another 10 years before we met. I haven't been consistent on updating here but until yesterday I did have almost 900 posts from over the last 16 years. I deleted almost all of it for a fresh start. I didn't want to start a new blog. I've had this one so long that it didn't feel right to delete the whole thing.

It feels right to come back here now, regardless if I end up making my posts private or the people I know don't use this site anymore. I need an outlet for my brain and I cannot seem to put pen to paper, but fingers to keyboard is more effective. Too many thoughts and feelings that I need to get out of my head and I can't always articulate them properly, or my loved ones just can't understand them. Sometimes just typing them out is enough. Comments and input from others isn't always as important as getting the words out. One can always reflect on them later by re-reading them.

I was just 17 when I first made this blog. It seems a bit cliche, but it feels like a lifetime ago yet in some ways like no time has passed at all. I never imagined back then where I'd be today. Actually thats not true. I'm almost exactly where I thought I'd be, but not with who I thought I'd be with. 32, married, and I have a wonderful almost ten year old son. So my husband isn't who I always thought I'd end up with, but that's how life is. Honestly, how many people at 17/18 end up with who they think they will?
Mood: contemplativecontemplative
Tunes: The Flame by Cheap Trick
14 May 2007 @ 01:14 am
So ACen was a huge blast. I got to see Mookie, lots of Mookie, went to a few panles, and spent three hours outside freezing my drunk ass off talking to some really nice guy.

I'd go really in depth but so much happened that it would take forever so I'll jusxt post a bunch of pictures.

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08 November 2006 @ 05:12 am
Today I didn't feel like reading fanfiction I know, weird so I clicked on my poetry link. I don't know why, but these two have been among my favorites for a few years. In the first on I put my favorite part in bold

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23 August 2006 @ 02:54 am
After ten years Stargate SG1 is coming to an end. This is not a big deal to most of you, but to me is. TV shows come and go, but this one has been a big part of my life.

I remember when the show first aired. Well not the real first time, that was on Showtime and we didn't have that. When it first aired on regular cable. I was staying over at my grandparents house like I did every weekend. I saw on the tv guide channel that the movie Stargate was going to be played. I hadn't seen the movie in a long time and asked my grandparents to let me watch it. Halfway through there was a commercial for the new series. Seeing what time it was to be played, knowing I was supposed to be asleep by then, I begged them to let me stay up and watch it, which they did.

I sat there spellbound. At first I was upset when I saw it wasn't the same actors, minus Erick Avari and Alexis Cruz, but that soon passed. I had seen the movie several times since its release three years before, knew everything about it, and this new series just added so much more.

Every Sunday night I would sit in my grandparents den, wrapped in a blanket with the lights off, and watch as each adventure played out. For the whole next week I would imagine what was going to happen in the next episode based on the previews at the end of the last one.

I watched the show religiously. The only reason I ever missed an episode was due to being grounded, and that didn't happen until season five, just before Daniel ascended. Since then I have missed quite a bit, due to lack of cable and work, though I am working on getting the whole series on DVD. As far I only have season one, but that is still one season closer to owning it all.

I know all the original characters, theirs life stories, theirs families, theirs loves, fears, and quirks. I don't care how lame, lifeless, geeky, or whatever else could be said this makes me seem. Lots of people have a show that is close to them.

I have grownup with this show, and now, as I turn twenty and my childhood ends, so does one of the biggest parts of that time in my life.

This show will always be a part of me. I have never loved a series more than this one. And though it now comes to an end, I know I will always be able to enjoy it on DVD and through it's way better than I thought it would be spinoff Stargate Atlantis.
Mood: sadsad
Tunes: Lips of an Angel by Hinder