Can't decide if I want to get a netbook or a laptop. I've been comparing the two for the last week and still can't decide. They both would allow me to use the internet and programs like wordpad/notepad so I would be able to type up my shit anywhere. And while the netbook is smaller and cheaper, the laptop has an optical drive which is something I want.

I still have awhile to decide as I'm waiting to see how much money/gift cards I get for christmas.

Any input would be much appreciated.

I'm a girl.

I poop.

I fart.

Sometimes I scratch my ass in public.

I don't have a package, but I adjust my tits in public.

I curse with the best, or maybe worst of them.

I drink and sometimes I smoke while I do.

That is all. You are dismissed.

Trillian and Aim aren't working for some reason. Tried to log on last night and it wouldn't go through. Tried to get redownload them with no succsess. Gonna have me mom try to figure out the problem tonite. I have people to talk to.

Remember, remember the Fifth of November,
The Gunpowder Treason and Plot,
I know of no reason
Why the Gunpowder Treason
Should ever be forgot.
Guy Fawkes, Guy Fawkes, t'was his intent
To blow up the King and Parli'ment.
Three-score barrels of powder below
To prove old England's overthrow;
By God's providence he was catch'd (or by God's mercy)
With a dark lantern and burning match.
Holloa boys, holloa boys, let the bells ring. (Holla)
Holloa boys, holloa boys, God save the King!


Remember, remember the fifth of November
Gunpowder, treason and plot.
I see no reason, why gunpowder treason
Should ever be forgot.
Remember, remember, the fifth of November,
Gunpowder, treason and plot!
A stick or a stake for King James' sake
Will you please to give us a fagot
If you can't give us one, we'll take two;
The better for us and the worse for you!

I was watching a show called 'Bringing home baby' today. I love this show because it's fun watching all these new parents who do nothing but complain about how hard life has become and bitchbitchbitch. The episode today was no different, but I had a huge lol moment because of it. I happened to be changing Ezra at the same time the new parents were changing their son. As they are changing their son he poops on to their bed. I giggle. The lol moment? As the new mom says "Oh no, he's pooping," Ezra starts to poo as well. At least I was smart enough to keep the diaper under my kid while I was changing him.

Not funny to you? Well then I guess you don't have kids/a sense of humour.

This is a tie between four people and I've only talked with two of them. Things between those two are going good now. With the other two, one isn't talking to me and the other, well things are a bit tense on my side.


Other news. First the geeky bit. Talked to my uncle and now both Ezra and I have our EQ nicknames. Ez is Windkin and I'm Dewshine. We think this fits the situation we are in fairly well and our personalities(as much as a month old has one). If you don't get it, look it up. Wikipedia is great sometimes.

And the rest. Ezra is doing great. Honestly, even though alot of things are falling apart for me right now all I need to do is look at him and I feel like everything is going to be alright. Even when he is fussy, still rare, and unhappy I can't help but be optomistic about the future. He can already lift his entire upper body up and hold it there and he has started to roll over. If you don't know 4 week old babies really shouldn't be able to do these. Such a smart boy!! And it looks like his eyes are going to stay the pretty grey-blue that they are right now. This makes me very happy. Not many blue eyes in the family. Actually I think only my grandma and her little brother have blue eyes, and their mom has green( or maybe it was their dad?).

Anyway, BED!!

Ezra is only three and a half weeks old and I can already tell he is going to be a geek. Today he sat quietly with me and watched 'Red Dwarf'. Just before I put the dvd in he was crying, but the moment the show started he stopped. Sure it might just have been teh pretty lights and movement, but I prefer to see it as his inner geek coming out.

Also, I am a fan of Elfquest, as is my uncle and many of his friends. They have for years been known by names of charecters in the comic, like uncle is Rayek and uncle Ricky is Strongbow. In fact I only know a friend of theirs as Cutter. I have liked this comic since 5th grade and have been waiting for them to give me my nickname. Saturday my uncle gave the baby a EQ nickname. I've been waiting 10 years and in three weeks the baby gets his. Though this may be because I started calling him cub, the charecters in EQ are elves that have wolf blood in them, because he was rather hairy when he was born and has cute pointed ears.

We have the internet back now. The computer was set up a few days ago but this is really the first chance I've had to use it. Everything is going ok. Ezra has gone from his 7lbs 5 1/2oz birth weight to 8lbs 8oz. He is just a wonderful babay. Not very fussy and sleeps great. We get up at around 2am for a feeding and them again around 6am. He really only fusses if he is hungry or has made a poo.

Aside from Ez, life kinda sucks. Andy and I just broke up. It's not because of the baby, not really. Andy has a lot of debt and work is really sucking for him so he doesn't have the time or money to drive down to see me as often as we would like or as he said, "As much as would be fair to me." And I have the baby so I can't go out as often anymore and have no way to drive up and see him as much as I'd like. Plus I just started applying for work again and that will eat up alot of my time once I get hired somewhere.

He came to see me today to talk in person, saying he didn't want to be an asshole and do it over the phone or via text and that he didn't want me to hate him. I said I don't hate him, and I don't, and that I understand but that it does hurt. Even though I tried not to I cried. He hugged me and held me till I stopped.

He wants to stay friends and I don't want to lose that part of our, now former, relationship either. So friends we are. He also said he would like to keep hanging out with me, when we are able to find the time, and not just when our mutual friends are around, but one on one. It was implied that there maybe a time in the future where we will give it another try, and as much as I want that, I'm not going to hold my breath. It would be foolish to hold out hope. I've done that before and been burned and I don't need any more pain and drama in my life.

We still don't have internets back at my house. I've been checking my email and facebook form my cell phone and that really sucks. Using grandmas computer to update right now.

If you haven't heard, I had the baby. Ezra Michael, September 25, 2009. 7 lbs 5 1/2oz. 19 in. He had pneumonia and as in the hospital for a week. I stayed with him. He's all better now. 2 weeks old today.

Just letting everyone know we are ok and still alive.

I can't sleep. I cry alot. My back and legs have never hurt more. I'm ready for this part to be over.

I am so ready for this baby to be born. My back is a ball of pain that keeps me awake most of the night, which just adds to the fatigue that I'm feeling again. My ankles are swollen and I have a bit of a waddle when I walk because I also have a rather inconvenient pain in my hips. I keep getting hot flashes that seems to only occur when I'm already feeling ungodly hot due to the weather.

I've got about five more weeks to go. So just about the time we are able to move into our new house, my parents just bought a house, I'll be evicting my little freeloader. Seriously, he's several months behind in the rent and I'll be damned if he thinks he's getting his security deposit back.

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1286039/

It has Robert Carlyle and Lou Diamond Phillips. One, did we really need another stargate*; and two, casting wtf?

*For all I know this could be better than the other two, but I doubt it.

Andy bought me a copy of Buddy Babylon: The Autobiography of Buddy Cole. I've been looking for this book since 8th grade. I never thought to check out Amazon before because when I first started looking for this book I had never heard of sites like Amazon. Everytime I asked at a store I was told it was out of print and they couldn't get it.

Well I was watching Kids in the Hall with Andy about a week back and mentioned how I've wanted to read this book. Last night Ashley and I stopped over at his place to pick up his brother Tim for open mic in Appleton when he handed me a package containing the book. So very excited. I almost knocked him out of his chair hugging him.

Going to go start reading the book right now.

Haven't been very good on keeping this updated, but if you have been on facebook you know I'm alive and well. Few little updates before I head over to Andys house.

1. I have about 8 weeks left till I explode.

2. We might have found a house big enough for all of us and our things and in our price range. My family and I hope to be moved into the new place by the time I explode.

3. Have preformed(sang) five times now at open mic night. It's like Rocky, very addictive.

4. Might be able to make it to the possible Rocky show in August. Won't be able to preform but I might be able to come and see everyone and the show!!!

5. Got my very own record player form Andy as an early birthday present the other day!!! It's at his house till we move.

6. Started having Braxton Hicks contractions last week. I should say that I have started noticing them as Dr. Bell says they would have started at six weeks and just become noticable.

7. Going to talk to a councler later this month to talk about spring nursing courses. Need to find out what kind of financial aid I can get.

That's all for now.

I should be in the shower no getting ready but a quick post won't mess me up. Today is my Baby Shower. YAY!!! Excited that some of my family from the Rapids might be coming, I don't get to see them often, usually once a year, but this year I get to see them three times. Sad my cousin Jessie might not be there, but she's sick. To anyone of my friendslist that was invited who can't make it, wish I could see you.

Small side note. Had a weird dream last night where there was a Chilis by my house and Nick, Liz, Kyle, and Stacy were all there eating with my grandma.

I'm up to 137lbs and have been for about a month. I was concerned that I hadn't gained anything since my last visit to Dr. Bell but after the last one when I was poked and proded and measured he said baby and I are doing fine. The little guy is gaining weight and growing, it's just I'm not at the moment. I'm now up to a visit every two weeks instead of once a month. My prenatals don't make me sick anymore but the fatigue that I had the first three months is coming back.

Mom and I have bought so many cute cloths at rummage sales, including some really high end/designer ones for under a dollar. I've got just about all the baby cloths I'll need so I'm hoping I'll be getting gift cards at the shower next Saturday so I'll be able to get diapers and formula after the birth.

Just started my third trimester and I've got about 12 weeks left to go. I'm so happy. As much as I love having this big belly*, I really can't wait to hit the new gym next to my house and get back to my normal size. Yay friend with a membership who wants me to go with her and can get me in for free, and yay for a mom who is willing to watch baby so I can go!!!


*I do love the belly. Just the other day I had two girls at the bar tell me I looked absolulty adorable and then they asked if they could touch my belly.

I went on a date tonite with Andy tonight. Andy sent me a text around 7:30 asking if I'd like to go out to dinner with him, after he was already half way to my place*. He picked me up around 8pm and we drove around looking for a place to eat. We ended up picking up some deli food and going back to his place in Little Chute. We watched a movie about the Monkees and then Chasing Amy. It was a wonderful night and now it's time for bed.


*Optimistic fella isn't he.

I is it.

I already did this. I grew up Methodist but converted to Kemetic when I was about 17.


On my way to Milwaukee now with sassy_lion to pick up pinkydbzfan, who I haven't seen since early September. After that it's on to open mic night at The Magnet to preform with the Fox Valley Five, though our fifth member just left yesterday for a cross country trip.

Went out with Ashley to open mic night at The Magnet tonight. We had a blast! Shortly after arriving we were commenting on the preformer and ended up talking to his friend who was sitting at our table. Her name is Lisa. Once Sean, the performer, was done we all went out side and started play songs and their friend Andy came out as well. We picked three songs and played them outside and then went in and performed them, calling ourselves The Fox River Five, or Fox Valley, still undecided.

We spent all night talking with these three and it couldn't have been more fun. After the bar closed we stood outside and talked, played more music, and joked around. We made plans to sing together again next week, except for Lisa who is leaving to travel cross country. Lisa and Sean left around 2:30 and we stayed and talked with Andy till 4, when the cops came and said we couldn't be parked on the street.

Oh so much fun. We sang Imagine, Lean on me, and Let it be. Can't wait till next week.