I'm up to 137lbs and have been for about a month. I was concerned that I hadn't gained anything since my last visit to Dr. Bell but after the last one when I was poked and proded and measured he said baby and I are doing fine. The little guy is gaining weight and growing, it's just I'm not at the moment. I'm now up to a visit every two weeks instead of once a month. My prenatals don't make me sick anymore but the fatigue that I had the first three months is coming back.

Mom and I have bought so many cute cloths at rummage sales, including some really high end/designer ones for under a dollar. I've got just about all the baby cloths I'll need so I'm hoping I'll be getting gift cards at the shower next Saturday so I'll be able to get diapers and formula after the birth.

Just started my third trimester and I've got about 12 weeks left to go. I'm so happy. As much as I love having this big belly*, I really can't wait to hit the new gym next to my house and get back to my normal size. Yay friend with a membership who wants me to go with her and can get me in for free, and yay for a mom who is willing to watch baby so I can go!!!


*I do love the belly. Just the other day I had two girls at the bar tell me I looked absolulty adorable and then they asked if they could touch my belly.

I went on a date tonite with Andy tonight. Andy sent me a text around 7:30 asking if I'd like to go out to dinner with him, after he was already half way to my place*. He picked me up around 8pm and we drove around looking for a place to eat. We ended up picking up some deli food and going back to his place in Little Chute. We watched a movie about the Monkees and then Chasing Amy. It was a wonderful night and now it's time for bed.


*Optimistic fella isn't he.

I is it.

I already did this. I grew up Methodist but converted to Kemetic when I was about 17.


On my way to Milwaukee now with sassy_lion to pick up pinkydbzfan, who I haven't seen since early September. After that it's on to open mic night at The Magnet to preform with the Fox Valley Five, though our fifth member just left yesterday for a cross country trip.

Went out with Ashley to open mic night at The Magnet tonight. We had a blast! Shortly after arriving we were commenting on the preformer and ended up talking to his friend who was sitting at our table. Her name is Lisa. Once Sean, the performer, was done we all went out side and started play songs and their friend Andy came out as well. We picked three songs and played them outside and then went in and performed them, calling ourselves The Fox River Five, or Fox Valley, still undecided.

We spent all night talking with these three and it couldn't have been more fun. After the bar closed we stood outside and talked, played more music, and joked around. We made plans to sing together again next week, except for Lisa who is leaving to travel cross country. Lisa and Sean left around 2:30 and we stayed and talked with Andy till 4, when the cops came and said we couldn't be parked on the street.

Oh so much fun. We sang Imagine, Lean on me, and Let it be. Can't wait till next week.

I've been re-reading Stephen Kings "The Stand" recently. All the news coverage about H1N1 made me think of the story and I cracked it open. While reading it today I couldn't help but laugh as I was finishing chapter 21 of book one.

"There have been some reported deaths in New York as a result of this latest flu outbreak, but contributing causes such as urban pollution and perhaps even the AIDS virus have been present in many of those fatal cases. Government health officials emphasize that this is Russian-A flu, not the more dangerous Swine flu."

I went out with my friend Ashley last night. She's having a lot of problems with her dad and needed someone to hangout with. We drove to the Wal*mart in Neenah and then went to The Magnet(a bar in Oshkosh).

Last night we had a girl named Tiffany, who just moved to Oshkosh after her girlfriend dumped her, chat us up at the bar. She was very nice and we ended up talking to her for most of the night. It turns out the only reason she approached us was because she thought we were gay as well.

Ashley and I have decided to keep track of how many times we get asked if we are a couple when we're out as it happens at least once everytime. Now I have to get ready to go out with her again tonight.

Oh what fresh hell is Friday going to be?

Snippet from a convo with an online friend about going swimming this summer.

Me: Course by then I’ll look like a beached whale.

Him: But the prettiest beached whale.

I took the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator. This is the page decribign my type.

http://typelogic.com/infp.html

Looking for a few writing prompts. Any and all ideas welcome, ones I like will be used and posted.

off to bed.

So medical assistance is fucking me over again. I just got another bill in the mail today. This one is telling me I own $585.09 for the ultrasound I had done on March 26th, no mention of this last one either btw. The bill also lists the blood I had drawn this last time to test for a few things, like downs, but has it marked as paid by MA.

I was told by my caseworker, the one time she actually called me back, that all my visits/ultrasounds/prenatal care would be fully covered by MA. If this is true why the fuck am I getting a bill for $585.09?

Now I have to go in, again, and talk to MA about this shit. This is going to be fun because this is the second time this has happened and I can guarantee that my caseworker won't be there. How can I guarantee this? Because she is never there when I call, never returns my calls, and is never there when I go in. I am beginning to think she doesn't really exist, that my name was drawn from a hat and MA is having fun fucking with me.

Made it worth the longer than normal wait.

http://www.questionablecontent.net/view.php?comic=1395

The concert last night was awesome. If you didn't read my facebook, I went and saw Franz Ferdinand with sassy_lion. Had a great time. Got to Milwaukee a few hours early and walked around talking about House and other things. Ran into a really creepy homeless guy. All fun.

Dream last night was very odd. I dreamt I was out with seanorange's girlfriend. We were doing the Spring Break thing somewhere nice and warm. She was wearing a redish-pink bikini and I was in a similar bluish-purple one. While we were down by the pool we ran into seanorange and the janatior from scrubs, whoes name is Jan Itor(like that one episonde). We end up going out drinking and dancing with them.

What amused me is I've never met seanorange's girlfriend. I've seen pictures of her, but I haver never met her in person.

Looking at nursing classes at the tech. Don't talk about it often but medical work interests me and is something I feel I'd be good at. While looking tonight I realize I will have no free time to speak of. Nursing classes require 25-30 hours a week. I'll need a job and that's 25-40 hours a week.

This is 50-70 hours a week I'll be out of the house. Add in the need for sleep, lets say 6-8 hours a night so 42-57 hours a week. That's 92-127 hours a week where I'll be busy.

Now lets not forget the little baby I'll be having soon. I have family who have offered to babysitting, but some of them I don't feel comfortable leaving the baby with. Also, the ones I do feel comfortable with have lives of their own. Now call me crazy, but I actually want to spend time with my child. I know I'll want to go out and relax as well, but baby trumps going out for awhile.

Full week time break down, if I take the classes:

Nursing Classes: 25-30 hours a week

Employment: 25-40 hours a week

Sleep: 42-57 hours a week

Baby Time: 76-41 hours a week(but really all the time)

Total: 168 hours= one full week.

Don't get me wrong, I know it won't be as bad and busy as it looks right now. Fully aware that I'll just need to adjust and it will seem like very little has changed, I mean aside from there being a baby around. I'm just freaking out about so many other things that my mind has decide to add this to the stress mix.

First we get mad cow. No more burgers and steaks this 4th of July or summer at all.

Next we get the bird flu. Turkey is out for Thanksgiving.

Now we have the swine flu. No more Easter or Christmas dinner.

I am really not liking my ex right now. He is being a real fucking asshole.

Also, for those who know my gmail, I made a new account and won't be using the one you have. I am now hollannbecker@gmail.com. I decide I needed a normal email for work applications and stuff.

Been debating finding out the sex of the baby. The only problem is if I do I want to tell all my friends and family, but I don't want my dad and them to know. I know they are trying to be part of my life, but they are being a bit pushy about it. I do have a life other then them, and they seem to forget.

I have a lot of shit going on. I'm looking for a job and worring about raising my baby. They seem to think I'm going to have all this free time to just go over and hangout. No. Going to be working and busy with a baby, trying to make time for my friends and the family I was raised with. They may not like it but they aren't high on my priority list.

I have to talk to them about this, and I will, I just have so much other stuff I need to be worring about.